Yeah, I Know He is Not That Into Me

Its very sad when I do something I know is wrong, but I do so anyways. Like purposely ruining someones things, back stab, or drink while I am still underage. Things that I would never let my own mother (who still feels I am an angel) know.

But I purposely decided after getting a bar over tipsy to do something very out of character. That was text a guy I know is taken. Now, I couldn't really tell you why I decided this. Let me just say though, even though he invited, I did not sext. Still, my comments were so out of character and that Barcadi made me more gutsy than I would ever have thought. Let me tell you, he did admit to being taken, but he did not seem to have his girlfriend on his mind. I don't know, but that fact that I was on a taken guy's mind felt powerful and fun. Now I know why some broads go as far as to sleep with a married man. It felt good, like this big shot of self-esteem was put straight in my veins.

But, the next morning I did feel bad. Because of this girl that I never met before. I have had family members with cheating spouses, and I know how bad they feel. Hell, they feel heartbroken.

And the guy hasn't text me again. So that whole new level of self-esteem I had went down. I knew I was on his mind for a little bit. Still, I went with it just for a bit of drunken fun.

Truthfully readers, I really don't care if I never talk to him again. Why would I want a guy would would rather sext with a Facebook friend then be with a woman he is commeted to. Also, karma is a bitch and I would hate to see what payback I get.

I'm really just disappointed at what I did.

Well, there is another tomorrow.

It's Got Internet!!!

Right now I just feel like shit. I spent the majority of the night with stomach aches wondering if I could even go to school. I guess it was some sort of payback...

Because I treated myself to a new toy.

I love reading books. I love the smell of a library or bookstore and pray that one day, Barnes & Nobles will come out with their own perfume.

Yeah, not likely.

When eBook readers like Kindle and Nook started coming out, I was very annoyed. Like there isn't enough stuff on pixel. It was after a trip to BN, that I realized that I didn't have enough space. Not enough for all the books I want. I wanted to re-collect the Harry Potter series, get my hands on The House of Night series, start collecting comic books, and buy those big bargain books on 18th century fashion (the time I should have been born. Either that or the 80's so I could live my teens in the 90's).

So, I went to the pixel side. I bought a nook on ebay that was in fair condition. It didn't really do anything fancy. It was the first one I guess, it wasn't colored, and whenever it turned the page, it didn't do so gracefully.

Still, the wifi makes up for it, and the nook account. I guess they just give you free books like a new game console comes with free games. I obtained Pride and Prejudice, Dracula, Little Women, and some other things. The fact that I didn't sacrifice any more space in my already crowded room was nice. But I still feel a bit guilty.

The best times I had were in a bookstore or library. It seemed so disappointing. I figured the feel of a book was the only thing the future couldn't take it away. It's funny thinking that my nieces and nephews (no way I am having children), will possibly live in a world without books.