I just don't feel like I belong

I know for a fact that I am not the only person that feels this way. I can't possibly be. But the feeling has become more prominent these past two days. A weekend of not going out has really made me look at the big picture here. That is that no matter how much I stay out or how fun it is, I don't really fit with that group. Maybe Candy and I would always be friends, but not really. Like we could do without each other fine. I think we just rely on each other (myself especially) like a drug we can't live without. It really sucks because no matter how many people I meet in my city, I don't fit in. I really don't. They want to talk about each other and Jersey Shore, but I want to talk about books, society, politics, and to live in a place like Italy and France. Shit, not even the students at this damn community college get me. You think they would at least be a bit more into the things I am into. It seems that when I go on about the symbolism of Scarlet Letter without mentioning Easy A, they look at me like I am speaking in another language. My mom always tells me that I need people who like books and social sciences. I agree, but there very hard to find. I hate to say it, but I need to move out of this state. I really do. But how am I supposed to do that?

It's Got Internet!!!

Right now I just feel like shit. I spent the majority of the night with stomach aches wondering if I could even go to school. I guess it was some sort of payback...

Because I treated myself to a new toy.

I love reading books. I love the smell of a library or bookstore and pray that one day, Barnes & Nobles will come out with their own perfume.

Yeah, not likely.

When eBook readers like Kindle and Nook started coming out, I was very annoyed. Like there isn't enough stuff on pixel. It was after a trip to BN, that I realized that I didn't have enough space. Not enough for all the books I want. I wanted to re-collect the Harry Potter series, get my hands on The House of Night series, start collecting comic books, and buy those big bargain books on 18th century fashion (the time I should have been born. Either that or the 80's so I could live my teens in the 90's).

So, I went to the pixel side. I bought a nook on ebay that was in fair condition. It didn't really do anything fancy. It was the first one I guess, it wasn't colored, and whenever it turned the page, it didn't do so gracefully.

Still, the wifi makes up for it, and the nook account. I guess they just give you free books like a new game console comes with free games. I obtained Pride and Prejudice, Dracula, Little Women, and some other things. The fact that I didn't sacrifice any more space in my already crowded room was nice. But I still feel a bit guilty.

The best times I had were in a bookstore or library. It seemed so disappointing. I figured the feel of a book was the only thing the future couldn't take it away. It's funny thinking that my nieces and nephews (no way I am having children), will possibly live in a world without books.